A Little Guasp on the way!

We are finally pregnant!!  We started trying to have kids in February.  I took my tempature every morning and kept track of when I was ovulating.  Problem was was that I wasn't ovulating.  So in October we finally got Clomid.  I thought it would take at least three months for something to happen, but nope, first try!  We are going to have a baby!!  On the day of my period, I took a test and it came out negative.  The next three days my boobs hurt so bad and still no period.  So I took another test in the morning and it was positive!  I told Brad and started crying.  I asked him, while crying, "Now can I buy baby stuff?  I couldn't believe that it happened so quick.  I, myself, have been trying to get pregnant for two years.  1 year 6 months with my ex and 6 months with Brad.  It's a miracle that it happened so quickly.  I see why now that it didn't happen with my ex and it did with my Bradley.  The baby will be due around July 28,2011.  This is truly a blessing in our lives and my families.  In my family the only Grandchildren we have are Jamie's kids.  She has strings attached to those kids.  If you want to see them, get them, love them you have to go through her.  You have to suck up to her and make her happy.  She is a dispicable woman.  She lies, and cheats all the time.  She is not a good mother at all.  I hate her with a fierce passion.  She could have given her children everything, but she is so dang lazy!  It has caused such a heart ache to my mom ,especially.  She barely has anything to do with Jamie anymore.  Her behavior has caused her own son to hate her. Being around her brings a terrible feeling of distrust and hate. Her son ended up moving in with my mom and dad after begging her to let him leave.  He didn't even want to go over to his mom's house for the holidays.  That is what this women has made her self to be in the eyes of her kids.  Our children will have no strings attached!  My family will not have to worry about their health or happiness.  My parents can be who they are suppose to be, grandparents who spoil their grandchildren rotten.  We are so happy to have this child come into our lives.  We are so greatful to Heavely Father for answering our deepest prayer. I am so thankful for my hubby for being so sweet and patient with me throughout this process.  I am thankful for a doctor who knows his stuff!  I am so greatful for friends and family's support. 

Meeting Uchtdorf!

So today we went to church and in walks President Uchtdorf!!!  I saw him and I thought,"Sarah, don't blink.  He will disappear if you do!"  He was really in our Saint George College 19th Ward.  It was so neat!  I got to shake his hand twice!  No one knew he was coming, not even the Bishop.  Bishop Caplin asked the two speakers if they could speed their talks.  They did...each gave their testimony which lasted maybe five minutes.  Uchtdorf got up and said,"I will never doubt that a high council can end his talk quickly again."  LOL!  He talked to us about marriage.  How we shouldn't bring our past luggage with us into it.  That we should make our marriage how we expected it to be.  He read D&C 121:41, D&C 12:8.  He said some more and gosh dang me I didn't think to take notes.  All I could think was his talk in Fall.  About how to slow down and enjoy life..at least to me that is what I heard and needed to hear.  All day the ward was talking about him being there.  It was such a blessing to see him there.  I am so thankful for Heavenly Father.  Who truly loves us and gave us a wonderful message their a wonderful man.  Uchtdorf's talks have always been a favorite of mine.  I met him wife too.  She is a lovely woman, with such grace and virtue.  I felt like she was another sister in the ward immediately.  I truly believe that behind every good man there is a great woman.  She was invitied up by him.  He said, "this is my sunshine."  She told us that we need to praise each other every day.  Uchtdorf also mentioned that we need to have character and not be characters.  Meaning act with grace, kindness and intergrity, not with pride and boastfulness.  Just to let you know I am paraphrasing all of this, but I felt such love today.  Before he arrived I was fighting a battle with Satan and while he was there I thought, I am winning.  I am so greatful for this church and nothing not no one will ever take me away again.

Thankful for Brad

You never know what you have until you see what others have or have lost it.  I love my husband.  He is smart, funny, easy going, straightforward, temple worthy, and loving of everyone..no matter what.  He easily forgives and forgets and stands up for those he loves.  He might act tough and cocky on the outside, but he really is sensitive on the inside.  I realized what I had yesterday when I was with someone who didn't have these fine qualities.  He cussed like a sailor, chewed his tobacco and was ready to kill someone.  He is a Marine also.  He doesn't have the priesthood and has given up all hope of God.  We met him while having dinner with our dear friends.  I felt uncomfortable by the swearing, the lack of respect and the anger that he had.  He made me realized that I am so lucky to have my husband.  My husband is a Marine, and a worthy priesthood holder.  I know that not only will he be an example to others, and our childern, but he will be an example to me.  I love him and am so proud of him.  I am thankful for my Bradley.

Hanging while married..

When you get married there is this weird thing that happens..all your single friends stop hanging out with you!!  It's cool.  That's fine..I'm married and you're not, so there.  LOL!  That's what I would like to say to my single friends who I truly love. They know it's a joke.  This is how it goes through out your life,"When are you going to start dating?  When are you going to get engaged?  When are you to get married?". Then my all time favorite, "When are you going to have a baby?!"  While now we want one, but at the beginning it made it worse. A word of advice for all of you, do not pressure anyone to do anything that you want them to do!  They will fight it even harder if it's not something they are ready for.  So to all my single friends, enjoy your wonderful singledom until you are ready to fall in love forever and work hard for it, because marriage ain't a peice of cake.  I love my marriage and I am so glad to be married now.  I have my best friend with me almost all the time.  I have my own freedome and  I get to do it without worrying if my parents will find out.  LOL!  I also love ALL of my married friends.  They are blunt, funny and kind hearted people.  I know that I can count on both my single and my married friends. 

To deploy or not..

In the military things change just as quick as the weather.  Which is why you regard everything said as a rumor until it's written down.  Brad might be going to Japan for 11 months.  We can't bet on it because, well, it's the military.  He signed up for this MEU thinking that he wouldn't get the call because he has little experience.  I was so upset with him when he told me he signed up for it.  He told me, "This will be the safest deployment that I could ever get.  I probably won't even get a call to go."  One month later, his Sgt. called, asking if he still wanted to go on this MEU.  He told him he would give him a call at the end of the day.  We fasted and prayed, asking Heavenly Father if he should go or not.  Our answer, either way we will be fine.  Don't you just hate those kind of answers!  So Brad and I both talked about it more.  The pros and the cons of staying and leaving.  How hard it would be for both of us.  How we would be able to talk while he is away.  I felt calm about it I prayed again by myself.  I felt that he would be safe.  That I wouldn't be alone in this and this time would be alot different then the first.  I also felt that I should trust my husband's judgement and his priesthood. So in one month we will either know for sure if he is going or not.  I know that us doing this would benefit us so much more than if he stayed.  Yes, I know it's a full year of not seeing him, not holding his hand, but it's what we have decided.  On the whole baby thing..we are going to keep trying until we know for sure if he goes or not.